“You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.”
Psalm 139:16
Recently, while catch a You Tube, someone battling cancer used the term, “Stable Disease,” for their current phase of the cancer treatment.
That means that the cancer keeps returning, and they deal with it, bit by bit, letting it grow, and treating it as it grows.
It’s repetitious.
And yes, there’s uncertainty and fear built into that.
The term, itself, is concerning… “Stable… DISEASE?”
Let me just say that I was not a “good little cancer patient.”
I did not do all that “they” recommended I should do. Mainly, it was about chemo.
But I followed, prayerfully, what I thought was best for me.
The jury is still out on those results.
I say all of that to mention that those of us dealing with a so-called, life or death, diagnosis, like cancer, feel a level of anxiety, uncertainty, and dread that is so difficult to manage.
It can be even more painfully difficult, as we wrestle with faith, and even people that choose to question the strength of that faith.
And then, there can be others, like the medical community, aware of it or not, intentional about it or not, who pressure, belittle, and scare us further, making us doubt things like our “remission,” our “survivorship,” and the hope for our very lives.
I’m in a limbo period right now. I don’t know what’s going on.
I don’t want to give any more air space to it, beyond that right now.
But the thoughts… they come up.
Still, His Word, which does not come back empty…
“So shall My word be that goes forth from My mouth; It shall not return to Me void, But it shall accomplish what I please, And it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it.”
Isaiah 55:11
Therefore, regardless of my diagnosis, I am clinging, even as much of a Doubting Thomas as I can be, to Scripture over my life.
“You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.”
Psalm 139:16
That means that The Most High knew, in creating me, before I ever was on this planet, that a cancer diagnosis would be a part of my life. He knows exactly how that will play out.
I try to soothe myself with those ancient Holy Words.
My times are in Your Hand.
“My future is in your hands. Rescue me from those who hunt me down relentlessly.”
Psalm 31:15
A deadly disease, like cancer, is a foe that, yes, can “hunt us down relentlessly.”
It can occur for us, whether we take a treatment approach like that of “Stable Disease.”
But our times, even our “cancer times,” are In His Hands.
That is Stability.
May each of us live, heal, thrive, and experience THAT!
ABBA-
We come to You, in The Name of Our Savior, Yahshua.
You know the intense fear we live.
You know the diagnosis.
You know our past, our health history.
You know what threatens us.
We feel so uncertain and scared.
Help us. Stabilize us.
Forgive us for sins that focus on doubt, not faith, in You.
Help us to unlearn this tormenting fear.
Thank You.
We receive it all, by faith, and with a brave, but scared, heart now, In Yahshua’s Name.
