Not Cancer Cavalier (Cancerventures Book Excerpt)

…I have not viewed cancer and each of its choices in a cavalier manner. Far from it. And, at the center of every weighty decision has been my spiritual take on it. 

It has to do with Gethsemane. That pesky little garden is a complicated heart issue for those who are faced with a battle of wills. 

“Not my will, but Thy Will be done.”

Mark 14:36

Yeah, talk about impossible as a mere mortal. How could I not come up short? 

I have battled with my Creator, nervously asking, “Do You want me to go through all of this?” I don’t know if I can handle the answer.  

So, I have such fun thoughts as “Am I going to Hell if I don’t have chemo?” and “Am I choosing my short-term, temporary decisions over my larger, eternal destiny?”  

Try these out at parties; they’re fun icebreakers. 

Believe me, I am chock full of churning questions. 

Will I regret this? 

Am I making the wrong choices? 

Am I selfish? 

Is it too late? 

Am I only creating pain, not just for myself, but for others? …

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